Hi everyone!
It’s been an awful long time since I posted here. Don’t worry, I read all of your posts (i was one of the guests who are always on the site

) but I have never had the time to sit down and write down something.
So, what has been going on in my life? Nothing and everything at the same time.
WARNING! This is going to be a LONG post
Still trying to find a full-time job. No luck so far. I’ve graduated eleven months ago and writing application letters ever since. But with the financial crisis and recession and such it’s hard to find a job. So far I have been to one interview and been called for another one (but I couldn’t attend due to my current job). That sucks.
Luckily my new manager has broken up my contract and gave me more hours to work. Normally I had up to 13 hours to work (weekends only) but now I have a contract in which I can work 13 to 29 hours on weekdays. But unfortunately this can’t last forever, since the place is closing very soon. No word on which date exactly, but we are all guessing it will be somewhere in the next 6 months. But I have a contract until April ’13 so I’ll be on the safe side. But I really want a job before that so I don’t have to worry about that.
My love life (or the lack thereof) also sucks. I met a guy about two months ago in the local Irish Pub. I was there with my friend and he was there with his colleague. We were in a booth in the smokers lounge because my friend smokes. The guy and colleague both smoke and decide to sit with us (note: they were there all evening, so pretty wasted at the time). At some point we were told to leave the room because there were not enough smokers to keep the room open (ehh, ok). So we decided to go to the bar area. ‘My’ guy was hitting on my friend but she has a boyfriend so she decides to ignore him. At some point he wanted a smoke but no one wanted to go with him. So I offered to join him (even though I don’t smoke at all). We stayed out for quite some time and talked about nothing (try to have a conversation with a drunk person, good luck with that!). We shared a kiss at some point outside, but then his colleague came by to check up on him so we broke off.
We exchanged phone numbers and began texting for about a week. He had to get a haircut and I said I wanted to check how it was done so we made plans to meet each other. We went to the beach and lounged all afternoon (and got pretty burned, both of us. The one time it’s sunny in the Netherlands

). We talked and we laughed all afternoon, and when we hold hands walking back to the train. Then he gave me a goodbye kiss and we started texting for another couple of days. I added him on facebook but we never talked there. I asked him out for another date.
Since I sort of decided where we spend our first ‘date’ I let him decide where we were going next. So he chose the zoo. (To me, if you are going out with someone to the zoo, you are more than texting buddies, friends or whatever you are going to call it. To me it’s more like: ‘I like you a lot and lets be a couple’ kind of thing). One day prior I texted him at what time he was coming in by train as he didn’t live in the same town as I do. No response, but it was a Friday evening so I figured he was at a bar with colleagues as he normally does on Fridays. Still no text on Saturday, one hour before the time I suggested. Well, I thought, battery dead, no reception (I see the good in people and the worst in technology). So I decided to go the train station at my suggested time. No him… so I waited for some time. But after 30 minutes I decided that I was being stood up. So I went home and cried my eyes out.
I decided to leave it to him to contact me but he didn’t so after one week I took matters in my own hands and wrote him on Facebook about what happened and that it is rude to let someone hanging like that. And if he don’t want to hang out anymore he could say so because i’m a big girl and can handle that. He replied and said that he was indeed drinking with colleagues and forgot all about our date (ehm.. how about me texting you twice?) then he went on with chit chat about him going back to school and buying a house. So I wrote him back that he and booze were not a good combo (sort of our gag since the first time we met and he being drunk) but he didn’t reply to that. And one day after that I have to read on FB: ‘xxx went from being single to in a relationship with xxx (his ex-gf)’ so my heart skipped a beat and I wanted to toss my laptop out and scream and cry and eat ice cream and yell at him and punch him in the face and what not. So I cried some more, but then I quickly realized that he is not worth my tears and that it’s his loss.
And in the same week I heard from my sister that she had a miscarriage at six week pregnant. So that week is something to forget real quick and look forward to the future.
Love X
I will visiting more often, i promise