I'm back....
Sorry for my very very long absence - work, life took over..
Vero, I am sorry to hear that you are going through some bad things at the moment. If you want to talk, let me know. I am here for you. I hope it will all work out in the end.
Sherry, congratulations on your own appartment.. Strange, right?!
Simone, happy Anniversary of your membership
Okay.. as you all know I got a job earlier this year working as a sub for a shipping company, where my contract was only to be for 2 month but after 3 weeks got renewed for to the end fo the year.
Yesterday I got permanent employment - my boss had spoken about it earlier but we could never find any time to finish my contract, however we managed to do it yesterday.. I am so happy that I got it! They are still impressed of my work ethic, and my desire to learn new things.
That was the good news.. here comes the sad news...
For those who follow me on twitter/FB has seen/read that my mom has been hospitalized since November 13.
She was admitted due to her infection numbers (blood) kept rising. The doctors suspected her chaterter was the reason.. We all thought that she would be discharged after a week or two but no. Some fluid in her abdomen had formed - they couldn't figure out where it came from - they took some test which showed some cell changes.
In her 3rd week she got very sick during a dialysis (it turned out that the antibiotic was the cause), she was rushed through a scan where the doctors found cancer and volvulus.. they can't operate the volvulus because of the cancer is so spread out through her bowel. Chemo to cure the cancer is a no, because in order to receive chemo, you have to have functional kidneys.
To sum it all up, my mum is dying slowly.. we don't know how long she has left - a week, a month?.. She's in this world on borrowed time. We take turns on visiting her at the hospital.
It's so f***** hard.. She's coping on antibiotic and morphine.
One of the worst things in all of this, is that her sisters and brother all died of some sort of cancer.. which means that I could be in the risk.. knowing that scares the shit out of me.. so I am going to the doctor next year, to find out what possibilities I have to get checked out.
HOwever my mom is coming home Monday or Tuesday, in order to spendt her remaining days with loved ones. Although each other day she has to go back to the hospital, in order to receive 4 hours of dialysis.
My only wish this year is that she will make it through Christmas and New year..
My dad, brother and his family and myself are mentally exhausted. I am so proud of my brother to be so very strong for all of us.. I try to stay strong for them as well but it's hard.
Dad is getting better for each day - accepting that he is about to become a widower, and has to figure out on how to do normal things - like cooking, laundry etc., chores my mom always has done.
To finish this post, I would like to say a big thank you for the support I have received only, it means a lot. And I will try to come around more often - but with that is happening and being in front of a computer 10-12 hrs every day (work), so turning on my laptop is not a priority when I get home.
I love you all and miss you..